Lesson 69 : F4 and Unhappiness: Pressure

Jerry
Jerry: "I have very high self expectations. Maybe lots of people just aren't ready to accept an artist like me...I have a mind of my own, I have high self-expectations...they think of me as hard to get along with. If you don't understand me that's how you'll think but if you do, you will know that I just want to do my stuff right. Whether it be acting, doing XZJ or whatever, I just want to do my best."

Jerry: "I'm a nerve wreck. Whatever I'm doing, I just want to do my best. Even though it might not be what others think as the best but just as long as I have done my best...that's all I can do. People don't see the other side of things..."

Yong: "Who described you as stupid?"
Jerry: "No...I just feel that I'm actually quite stupid. In a lot of things, I need people to teach me, to tell me...If you just tell me to pose nicely..I feel like a vase...that's not waht I want to be."

Jerry: "I get nervous easily. I can only be early not late. I'm the type that gets up immediately when the alarm rings. When filming << Come to My Place >>, I had a scene where I play the piano. I practiced and practice, until there will blisters on my hand. Lots of people want me to release an album...i really want to do that...but not until the time is right. They say that I'm so weird...maybe I am!"

Question: "You love making your life harder...are you happy?"
Jerry: "Working with me is very tiring, especially in the last few weeks, during the XZJ period. I must appologise to the publishers."

Jerry: "When you are not popular, no one writes about you. All you think about is where to work tomorrow. But now, I put alot of pressure on myself. I worry about lots of things, those that work with me get very tired...people at work call me 'General'."

Question: "Why be so hot-tempered...aren't you afraid of hurting your friends?"
Jerry: "I'm dumb. I can't do lots of things at once but I want to do them well. When I see others not put in their all...like I'm always on time, I wait for others one day, two days...after ten days... won't you be angry? Lately, for XZJ, there's arguments everyday...I even say that if the thing is not going to turn out right, I'd rather refund everyone their money. I don't care what others thing...I just want something of an international standard...it's hard but achievable."

Jerry's stylist: "He's someone that is very hard on himself. He's the type that would put 110% in everything he does. I'm really afraid of the day that he will film a 'head smash glass' scene - he will really do it, smash his head against the glass...I think he will."

Jiao Zi: "Can't be lazy around him. When he cries, as far as I know, it's because he is blaming himself, for something he can't do."

Ken
Ken's co-worker at BBQ shop: "If I make the same mistake more than 3 times, Ken would get very angry. I remember last time I yelled out WELCOME too loud and scared the customers...boy, did I cop it from him!"

Ken's view on things are not the same as Jerry, even though they are both Capricorns. Ken's the pessimistic type.

"I'm a very two-sided person." This immediately indicates his inner dilemmas.
"I 'm way too realistic, yet I hate my realistic views."
Ken says, "Sometimes I really don't like my realistic personality, yet sometimes I don't don't. The two voices inside my head tug at each other."

"In actual fact, I often think about multi-dimensiona questions. Everyday I would think about family, career, friends, what do to tomorrow, what to eat, what to wear...and much more. I would think about everything every day."

Ken: "I'm a very weird person, it's hard to see my emotions and I talk in a straight forward manner. I often offend people, so I try to talk less. My friends think I'm very hot-tempered, hard to get along with. I'm rebellious...that's in my nature."

Zai Zai
ZZ: "I'm very sensitive at heart. I often get affected by lots of little things."

Vanness once said: "He's bad...when he's tired, he's very boring, he won't talk just sit there. Whatever we try to do or say to him, he won't even react. He does everything slowly, even eating."

ZZ loves to laugh and eat. What bothers him? Pressure. There were reports that ZZ likes to cry when the pressure is too much. But ZZ says: "I don't like to cry, that's an exaggeration. When there's too much pressure, I like to think to myself in silence."

"To be honest, I still haven't found a way to relieve pressure. I'm still seeking for a way. When the pressure is too much, I would cry at home, when i'm done, it feels much better. I know this is a crap way but it's quite useful, so I still use it."

F4's Pressure From The Media
Tao Zi: "Any changes lately?"
ZZ: "I can go out now."
Tao Zi: "What does that mean? Media?"
ZZ: "I haven't been out for a month now, even food, I have to get my friends to get for me."
Tao Zi: "How did you overcome that?"
ZZ: "My friends dragged me out."

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Yong: "If there's a report that says something you didn't say today...you..."
Jerry: "I'm still as weak I guess."
Yong: "You would still be unhappy?"
Jerry: "Err...I really care about what others say. If they criticise me, I really care because...I want to do my best and want everyone to see that. But when the reports come out, just using their pen, the author can smear out all your hard work for the year just like that. I think that's pretty unfair."

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Ken's very straightforward, he doesn't beat around the bush and that often offends some people...He says: "I don't believe in human nature." He has lots of experiences that will back this up. Before entering show biz, "There was a time when I only had a few hundred dollars on me, friends, girlfriend, all deserted me."

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Question: "ZZ's fans are crazy over him, are your fans the same?"
Ken: "Not just crazy but sometimes, I hate them. Last time, I was in Singapore doing promo. Fans were chasing me down and smashed into my car a few times. I shouted at them: 'Oh, you love me or do you want me to die?' The next day I apologized, I said I shouldn't have lost control, but I just want my fans to know, I eat, I go to the toilet...I'm human."

Class dismissed!


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