CashBox
August 2004 Issue


Translated by JerryJeans and Kym of JerryBBS

Thanks to Action4Jerry for the above cover scan.


Give Jerry a break!

The evil human heart
Faced with this macro-environment, I am also helpless.

I used to be compared with a certain somebody. People will tell me that this person does everything that he/she is told to, but you on the other hand have so many opinions. But it is unfair when some people want whatever you give them. However, I know what I want, I will do the best, if others do not present me with opportunity to learn - How would you know what I really want?

Unless we spent quality time together then you would feel that what I am saying makes sense and will change your impression towards me - but I really am not able to get along with every single person in this way.

Maybe I am not so intelligent. After searching for some reference, doing my homework, then I know how I should perform. You want me to improvise on the spot, I am not a naturally talented artiste so I won't be able to achieve a certain effect. It might even be that the outcome is negative so why should I spend time on work that has such an adverse effect?

People asked me too, why have I not learnt to be worldly when I have done so many jobs prior to this? Why am I still so naive in the ways of the world?

I have considered this point seriously. In the past within every environment, I feel that I had handled them quite well. But why am I not used to this Entertainment Circle?

From young, the teachers and friends that I have met treated me very nicely. Therefore I have never known how treacherous the human heart can be.

Death be the end of it all!
I won't deny that we have to bear the burden of being idols. People will only regard us as idols. To him, idols should sing these kinds of songs and so you should do accordingly. Otherwise we will be considered fastidious, being difficult. However I might truly feel that I am able to sing a certain song well. Yet the teacher just would not let you sing so what can you do?

When in comes to striving for what you want, no matter how gently you go about it. Others will still feel that you are being difficult.  

I have worked on this album for three years, spent much time learning. Spent my own money to learn the piano and take voice lessons. Besides more profound like sound-mixing, I was involved in every stage of the production. So you can ask me anything and I will be able to give you an answer. 

Keen observers will be able to tell. If my first album were released when I was in F4, my album will definitely sell very well. Then why didn't I?  Could you please tell me what can I offer if I do? A commercial product of the {Meteor Garden} phase, what value is there in that?

At that time, I really hated my voice very much. It sounded so terrible. I neither knew what singing is all about nor the imbuing of feelings. What I really did not want was to end my Artistic career in two to three years and look back with regret. Then I might as well just die.

I know that my forte is acting and singing is secondary. All I hope for is that others can see my progress. Though I have no confidence that everyone will definitely accepting of my best but at least they may say I have made a brave attempts.

Please do not say that releasing my album simultaneously with other idols is like a war. That is too severe. If everyone feels that the album is listenable then it is so. Or else I will just go back to my acting it is as simple as that.

Basically I am not the `Vocally Superb' type. At best I am an Emotive type.  I am not a great singer but so what if inadvertently it was discovered that I can sing? Does it mean everyone will like it for sure? Even if one cannot sing, machines can alter till it sounds nice. I have experienced quite a fair bit during the album making process. I can say that my singing has soul.  

To be frank, I can't guarantee I won't go off-key. But now that I have found my interest in singing and completed what belongs to me. In terms of thought, it is different from others and that will be enough.

As we have already come quite a long way so if this album sells very well, it would not be just riding on the tail of our popularity.

Lin Zhi Ling and Chai Zhi Ping
When I was modeling, three or four female models were very good to me. They have encountered some experiences together with me. When I was saddened by relationship problems, they were the ones who comforted me. So they are not like my usual friends, this would also include Lin Zhi Ling. 

A lady ever joked about why I am not willing to be with them. If I were to think seriously about whether she was joking or she meant it, then this is an intricate kind of friendship.

I do believe that friendship can exist between a man and woman. In fact, I have never thought about being with Lin Zhi Ling. Other might feel that why the both of you are so intimate? But we have been through trials together so in our eyes we are not intimate at all. These are gestures of very good friends.

She has not changed at all since the first day I saw her till now. From the start she was reputed to be a charming and beautiful lady. But we are not. We were just like some country bumpkins entering into Modeling, similar to your regular hooligans.   

When it comes to handling the Media, I won't be qualified to give her any suggestions right? She may be able to learn from my mistakes like `If you don't handle things the way I did'. Her attitude has always been very appropriate. It could also be her family upbringing
that affected her attitude. I am not from the same background so I am more forthright and direct in my speech similar to that of a butcher.

Will I be embarrassed to meet Big Sister Chai? Why should I be embarrassed? When filming `Meteor Garden' as it is her show, she often calls me over to her office to discuss. Now I am filming other movies and the album is with the Recording Company. So we meet up less since I am not acting in her show. I do not understand why outsiders always take us to be like at odds with each other. If you were to look the top 6 papers today, at least 2 or 3 will say that I am scolding her. In fact, I have never said anything of that kind before. The reporters exaggerated some of the facts. Truthfully what I said at the Press Conference that day was what Big Sister Chai had told me to, so how could I scold her?

Who is the `Boss' in F4?
I am surely not the Big Brother of F4, Ken is. He will warmheartedly tell us what we should do. On the other hand, Vic and I are the ones who will so as we are told. Age is not an indication of experience nor does it mean I am capable of teaching others anything. Showing concern goes without saying. The most I would do is to comfort that person when he is down. As to emotional problems, we never talk about it. Why not? Since you can't help and even if you wanted to could you.  .  .  .

Hardships
Jerry said that the place feels familiar as he was standing in the middle of the club getting ready for the shot. `I used to be a bartender at the @LIVE.' Besides selling drinks, he sold pagers and phones as well. That was still when hand phones were black and bulky. These phones were very expensive and no personal numbers. Only when the customers are on very good terms with the sales personnel then they would patronize you. `Actually I am not very good at the job. My seniors would chat up the ladies but I am just not such a sociable person. However my performance was still ok.' Those previously in the line know that most counter sales personnel was mostly ladies.  .  .  .`I am not being polite but I really do not feel that they patronize me because of my looks. I just felt then that it is so hard to sell pagers.'